Saturday, September 18, 2010

New low...

   Looks like I won't be able to join others this fall semester. Financial aid decided not to look my way this time. I don't know what to say or think honestly. Along with being unemployed, this new situation allows me more time to the canvas and sketchbook...but it gives me an empty feeling. I don't like not having any direction. It aggravates me and makes me question what and why I am here in the first place.
   I wonder if its me, but lately it feels like my closest friends have decreased their attempts in contacting me. I mean the usual people I speak to. Maybe its all the free time I have now, but it almost feels as if I am the one making more an attempt in communication than any of them. Which makes me sad. Maybe they're busy or perhaps I did something to offend. Hopefully its not that they stopped caring. Because I can't afford the alcohol that follows that if it were true.
   I guess Blogger, you and I will be much more acquainted; along with anyone else reading.